Recently I experienced a major block while writing my MA project. I felt as though I had no support and feedback on my ideas and therefore could not write any new material. EE and JK were in town right before "Grandpa W's" passing and we decided to do a reading. I asked a question about my MA project and the lack of support for it; Motherpeace sent back the Crone card and I knew I had to dig deep within and trust myself to get through the writing process. This may sound absurd; however, recalling this card during times of frustration helped me finish my project. I was worried that I couldn't write without direction--this card let me know I had a lot of smart thinking within myself.
I think it would be fun and useful to create an electronic archive of my readings. Often I have wished I'd kept better track of some of the questions asked and cards drawn over the past two years. If anyone is actually reading this, you can find out more information on Motherpeace Tarot here: http://www.motherpeace.com/
Tonight I drew the following cards in relation to the following questions/concerns:"What kind of energy should I bring to my MA project defense tomorrow?"
From, Motherpeace: A Way to the Goddess through Myth, Art, and Tarot: "The Twos are ruled by the Moon and, like the High Priestess, represent receptivity and magnetism. The two is the polar opposite movement to the one, which means it naturally pulls back from the outward or forward action of the one. Twos can be somewhat secretive or private--more unconscious than the one or the three, and quieter. All the twos signify polarity and balance between opposites."
"The Two of Discs depicts the juggling required by a new mother of twins who stands in the center of her busy life and wonders whether she can hold the whole thing together. So far, she's doing pretty well and the babies are happy. But her hands are full, and the film runs on. Sometimes she feels like a two-headed snake writhing in opposite directions, as one baby wants to eay while the other wants to sleep. In the Motherpeace image, the film reels that carry her mental pictures also represent the Celtic wheels and symbols of earth that ground her in ancient power.
She gets her support from the earth, her feet planted firmly like the roots of tall trees drawing nourishment from the soil. She knows she has the means in her body to take care of the needs of her children. The waxing crescent moon in the twilight sky promises her strength and renewal in the difficult work of managing the twin aspects of her creativity. A person is like this young mother is she is trying to balance more than one project at a time, or handling both inner growth and outer achievement at once."
"Should I change direction after my MA or continue on with the PhD at UWM?"
"Eight is a number of change and inspiration. The eights all represent a change of mood from what has gone before and an entering into some new phase that comes directly out of past experience. Ruled by Uranus, they signify movement and new direction. They are definite and external in quality."
"The Eight of Discs represents Craft--apprenticeship in a skill that will take one through life in a grounded way, and a sharing of skills between people. These women are serious in this work, and understand the 'art' of meaningful occupation. Each character in the Motherpeace image is engaged in a particular, individual task, yet they work together toward common goals. One makes a pot from clay, another forms a basket from reeds. A woman sits at a loom and weaves a tapestry, another strings beads for a belt. All these objects are functional, yet made with care and a deep understanding of love and beauty.
The underlying meaning of the Eight of Discs is 'the Path,' suggesting a spiritual undertaking, a movement of the personality onto the more spiritual road of the soul. Native American people embody this understanding of daily work that is infused with spirit--for them, the worlds of spirit and matter are not separate. What is utilitarian must also be beautiful, because it comes from the Mother and is made as an offering back to her. The Zen consciousness of work is similar. Every task is done with the simple understanding that it matters. Work is done for its own sake and not for personal gain or someone else's profit."
"Will this change necessarily involve (a shift toward) music?"
Tower: Shattering the Structure
"The Tower in the traditional Tarot interpretation is representative of destruction and cataclysmic change--and earthshaking stroke of illumination and the end of false consciousness...When you get this card in a reading, brace yourself--you're in for a change. A radical shift is taking place in your life, a flash of illumination. Whether you like what you see or not, you see it. You may not want to move, but the structure is falling out from under you. Prepare yourself for the future, for the past is slipping away before your eyes and things are becoming very clear.
The change may be something that happens to you--and event or situation that transforms you. You may suddenly know your marriage is over, your job is ending, or a new lover has just entered your life and is going to shake everything up. You may have a sudden lucid understanding of your own destructive patterns or addictions and the need for immediate and radical change. These understandings may be momentary, like a lightening bolt, but the effects are far-reaching and will endure. A moment of luminous anger or understanding transforms you from within.
When your kundalini awakens and your spiritual center opens, then you will feel your own shaman-power and the ability to know what is really happening and what to do about it. You will not get lost in the particulars; you will transcend the momentary; and like the priestess in the Motherpeace Tower, you will find yourself raised above mundane levels of life. You may experience very high levels of creative energy. It is your task, then, to interpret what you have seen and heard at these high altitudes where the sacred and profane intersect. What makes you so clear is the fire from within meeting the fire from without. It is control over these fires that makes you powerful.
At the same time that you "high self" can understand and handle what's happening in your life at this time, your personality self may be freaking out. Like the group of people waiting at the foot of the Tower for the advice of the oracular priestess, your personality needs help and guidance during the stress of this transition. Take time to appreciate the difficulties facing you, and be especially cautious with your health and welfare right now. Eat well, get plenty of rest, and don't leave yourself open to accidents or illness.
If possible, open up to the power offered by the Tower card. There is great joy in what Kali holds out to us--profound bliss in the understanding of the soul's immortality and the body's divinity. When these energies move through you, you can experience them physically as well as spiritually, as they reveal to you the highest experiences of spirit simultaneously with the deepest pleasures of the body. It is no accident that Kali is both sexual guru and destroyer, but she slays whatever stands in the way of true appreciation of what is real. She does not ask to escape 'the wheel of life,' but rides it consciously from the center. When you let her into your life, you will experience an increased sensitivity to everything in existence along with a heightened ability to handle whatever comes your way."
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